Hi friends, it's Sue writing today's blogpost. Thanks for joining and taking the time to read and ponder with me!
I’m working on growing what I call my ‘awareness muscle’--meaning, I am becoming more and more aware of what’s going on IN me and being present to what’s going on AROUND me.
Today, as I reflected on what was going on “IN” me, I became aware of a tightness in my chest. Even though I was with a friend in the midst of the beauty of nature, I noticed what felt like a tangled ball of ‘something or a clenched fist inside my chest.
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I took a minute and asked myself this question without judgement.
"What is this?"
After a while, I sensed the tangle was anxiety over what was next. There were a lot of shoulds wrapped up in the tangle. Such as, what ‘should' I be doing? What 'should’ we do next. And I became aware of how much I ‘should’ on myself even though I know better!
I heard a saying recently that what we know doesn’t’ matter as much as what we believe.
I know in my head that I’m ok. God loves me, and that I’m where I’m supposed to be. But what I was believing, or what I was living out of was much more tangled.
When I’m present to what I’m believing in any moment… then I can tend to it. I invite Jesus into that tangle of ‘shoulds’. The knots begin to loosen and I am able to untangle them with truth in the inmost places.
So today, you might consider starting (or continuing) to strengthen your awareness muscle by taking a few minutes and asking yourself, "What’s going on IN me right now?"
Notice it, try not to judge it. It might involve forgiving yourself or someone else, it might mean taking some time to sit with the tangles.
The Psalmist did this too, so we’re in good company!
"Watch over your heart with all diligence, For from it flow the springs of life”. Pr 4:23. NASB
Have a blessed day, my friends. Don't forget to give yourself some time!